Thursday, April 2, 2009

don't you know I have cancer

I think back and remember my thoughts when I first diagnosed and weeks after that before I really had a plan. The world seemed to continue as normal, yet I didn't. Time all of sudden stood still.

I saw the guy running down the road on his daily jog..... "how can he be running... don't you know that I have cancer."

Some friends called us and asked us to dinner......"how can we do that... don't you know I have cancer."

The mom in the store was yelling at her little son who was crying....."why are you doing that.... don't you know that I have cancer."

My husband leaves for work......"work? Don't you know that I have cancer."

My kids are going out on Saturday night, can you pick me up at 11? "Yes, but don't you know that I have cancer?"

I see some friends laughing in the store......"how can you be laughing.... don't you know that I have cancer?"

I see the lady fixing her beautiful brown hair in the rearview mirror as she sits at the stoplight. "hair?.... don't you know that I have cancer?"

I sit in the house one night alone while my family carries on their daily activities....."don't you know that I have cancer."

"How can everyone and everything continue on as normal when I have cancer. My life has stopped right at this moment."

Little daily things that I always took for granted or never even really thought about had new meaning.....and they still do.

Time has moved forward. And so have I!

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Gail:
Thank you for your post. You nailed this one. Your life has been forever altered since your diagnosis. You have been forever altered since your diagnosis. I am not talking about the physical aspect, but the mental, emotional, and spiritual alterations you have experienced. You have handled this whole alteration with such strength and fortitude. You have learned so much about yourself during this journey. Thank you for never giving up. Thank you for sharing this with us. Thank you for letting us be your friend.
Sharon

Anonymous said...

Gail,
I agree with this post! And I agree with you friend Sharon. You have held your head high and had such a positive attitude through this whole journey, you truly are amazing. I am so glad we have become friends
Connie