I think back and remember my thoughts when I first diagnosed and weeks after that before I really had a plan. The world seemed to continue as normal, yet I didn't. Time all of sudden stood still.
I saw the guy running down the road on his daily jog..... "how can he be running... don't you know that I have cancer."
Some friends called us and asked us to dinner......"how can we do that... don't you know I have cancer."
The mom in the store was yelling at her little son who was crying....."why are you doing that.... don't you know that I have cancer."
My husband leaves for work......"work? Don't you know that I have cancer."
My kids are going out on Saturday night, can you pick me up at 11? "Yes, but don't you know that I have cancer?"
I see some friends laughing in the store......"how can you be laughing.... don't you know that I have cancer?"
I see the lady fixing her beautiful brown hair in the rearview mirror as she sits at the stoplight. "hair?.... don't you know that I have cancer?"
I sit in the house one night alone while my family carries on their daily activities....."don't you know that I have cancer."
"How can everyone and everything continue on as normal when I have cancer. My life has stopped right at this moment."
Little daily things that I always took for granted or never even really thought about had new meaning.....and they still do.
Time has moved forward. And so have I!