Friday, January 9, 2009


Once again, I am overwhelmed with kind words of sympathy and encouragement from friends, family,lurkers to my blog and strangers with the loss of our dog! It has been a tough week for our family. I have been so torn up about losing Sunny that it has been difficult for me to talk about her without crying and I am teary as I write this. I thank you all for being there for me once again.

When I started this blog it was to keep my family and friends informed about what was going on with my life during breast cancer treatment. Over the last few months my blog has found its way across the U.S. to computers of people I will probably never meet, some of those who I share a common bond, going through cancer treatment. My blog has actually been viewed in 41 states, some of which I am sure were random blog surfing. Never did I imagine that I would be the source of encouragement or hope or even inspiration to someone else going through what I am going through right now. Starting the blog to keep my own mental sanity has turned out to be so much more than I ever imagined.

On a lighter note,,,,,,, or is this a lighter note,,,,,,,

I am staring to lose some eyelashes! I love my eyelashes!!!!! Let's hope that they all don't disappear!

Thursday, January 8, 2009


The last two days have been pretty emotional for me. The day after Sunny died I had to be at the hospital by 7 am for another blood test to see if my white blood cell count had improved from 700 the week before. They needed to be 1500 to be able to get chemo that day. I waited until 7:35 before they even called my name. The nurse had trouble getting a vein this time (this is the first time this has happened) so 2 sticks later they finally got blood samples. By the time I went to the day hospital it was 8 am. Then finally at 9 am I got the word that my white cells were only up to 900 this week. Go home and come back next week for another try. Great! Just what I wanted to hear after dragging my butt out of bed and getting little sleep the night before because I am so sad about Sunny. I came home to an empty house and cried. My Sunny was not at the door to greet me this time. And she was not there to lay next to my computer as I did my transcription work in the afternoon. I managed to endure the day, climbed into bed at 9 pm to read, texted my friend Cathy at 10ish for a few good laughs and finally the Benadryl I took put me to sleep.
I worked this morning and am now home doing my transcription work. I hope this funk is gone by tomorrow!

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

January 1, 2000-January 6,2009

My heart is so filled with sadness over the loss of our beloved Sunny. The only comfort I have is that she is no longer in any pain
There will never be another Sunny.

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

New Project

After visiting my nieces blog who is a very avid scrapbooker, I was intrigued by a new scrapbooking kit that was soon to be coming out on January 1st. Am I a scrapbooker? No, not at all, but the concept behind this kit sounded so easy that I thought I would give it a try because I DO take a lot of photos, especially now with my new camera. What is the kit? Take a photo every day for the next year, organize them in this kit with all the supplies they include and after one year you have a one-year photo journey. Can I do that? I am not sure, but I am going to give it a try. Jess, you will be proud of me if I succeed. LOL I went to this website and with all the hype and promotion it was difficult to get through and order. I placed an order, it did not look quite right, and then this week got a confirmation that I indeed would be getting one of the kits. The website crashed due to an overload of scrapbook junkies who were trying to get their hands on one of these kits. I guess I will be very lucky if one arrives at my door! So for now, while waiting, I am taking one picture a day and will wait to see if the kit arrives.

Tommorrow, bright and early, and I mean early (labs at 7 am, what was I thinking??!!) I am headed to Hotel Froedert for another blood test. Please say a prayer that my white blood counts are up so I can get the treatment!!

Sunday, January 4, 2009


There is something about January every year that makes me start to reorganize and throw out. I think it starts with putting the Christmas decorations back up in the attic. We have lived in our house for 14 years so you can imagine how much "stuff" we have collected in that time. Today I spent part of the day in the attic, reorganizing and throwing out. Some parts of the attic have not been touched in years, while other "stuff" has been sorted through from time to time. Several things brought a smile to my face...... the little white gloves that Natalie wore when she made her first communion..... the little paper mache mask that Billy made when he was in grade school..... ice skates that were practically brand new that Natalie "had to have"......Christmas sketches that Billy made when he was little (he went through a phase where he liked to draw)....the red rocking horse that Aunt Sandy bought for Natalie when she was very little....the Brio train table that Grandpa Bill made for Billy to put his train track on..... matching rocking chairs with the kids names on them. Amidst the empty boxes and junk there were lots of memories and lots of "stuff" that was just too important to part with. I think I will keep this "stuff" for many years. If it brings a smile to your face it is just too important to part with.